2009 was the year of yes. I was sick and tired of saying no. Turning down opportunity, turning down fun, and not making anything happen for myself. I needed to change my thinking from, "no I can't" to "yes, I can!". My no's were almost always for one of two reasons- I couldn't afford it, or I had no one to go with. I decided that to make things happen for myself, I needed to start believing that I HAD enough money, and I CAN do it. And I wasn't going to wait for people anymore, it would be just ME. I really needed to focus on myself, clear my head and get to know myself again. There were so many thing I had been wanting to do, so many things to learn and places I wanted to visit . My 2009 brought me so much goodness!! I said yes to my health being first, I went for steams and the rec center and tried out a far infrared sauna. I did a lot more meditation. I bought a bike and took long bike rides, I started taking yoga classes, I took spontaneous road trips by myself, had a picnic and ran around in my underwear at Dry Island Buffalo Jump! went to a props workshop in Calgary, met some amazing people with my amazing friend Mandy and learned hula hooping and poi!! well... kinda learned poi.. But I learned hula hooping!! I took a spanish class, attended a sweat lodge, a photography retreat, a music festival where I slept in my van and took a mud bath by the river! I took a leave from my job and spent my time chilling at the farmers markets as a vender selling Cloud 9 for a friend. It was relaxing, fun, and I still managed to bring in some cash! The best part of the year was, my amazing 25th birthday party! All I wanted was a fire in the backyard, great food, sangria, and all the people I love the most!! To top it off I planned some live entertainment by my ever so talented friends and family! Mandy sang a song just for me :) Jared and Oksana danced. Tess did some poi, and we all hula hooped! It was a fabulous evening, and I couldn't have imagined it better! The only thing I would've changed was, my brother, sister in law and niece and nephew weren't able to make it :( It was a fantastic year and I will continue to say yes! I will not wait around for people. I will go places by myself, and do things by myself and ALWAYS have the money to do so!
What I hope 2010 brings for me is more yes!! And a continuing transformation in my life. My head is clear and focussed and I feel Im becoming more and more me :) I hope this year bring the opportunity to make more changes in the way I wish to live. I hope to wear more natural fibers and support MORE local MORE often. Try to switch over ALL, not just some of my food. I want to grow things! wonderful things in my garden! More yoga, more meditation, more bike rides! more spontaneous roadtrips, I want to go to powpows, listen to singing and dancing and drumming. I want to learn how to make a drum, and moccasins, and bannock! And maybe, just maybe, I can take a trip this year :) And so with that, I say goodbye year of yes, and bring on year of me! Thank you to everyone who helped me along this year in one way or another! Love you all and happy new year!!!
